Today’s devotional can be a challenge for us mortals who like predictable, safe, lives.  Maybe you aren’t one of them, I am.  The main things that hit me today were,

After sanctification, it is difficult to state what your purpose in life is, because God has moved you into His purpose through the Holy Spirit. . . If you seek great things for yourself, thinking, “God has called me for this and for that,” you barricade God from using you.

Your mission, if you choose to accept it, is to stop lounging in your “safe” little world of “safe” ideas and let God take you out into His big world, the vast unknown–twinkle like a star.

He goes on to say,

When I stop telling God what I want, He can freely work His will in me without any hindrance.  He can crush me, exalt me, or do anything else He chooses.  He simply asks me to have absolute faith in Him and His goodness.  Self-pity is of the devil, and if I wallow in it I cannot be used by God for His purpose in the world.  Doing this creates for me my own cozy “world within the world,” and God will not be allowed to move me from it because of my fear of being “frost-bitten.”

This process of getting to the state where I can say with honesty, “I really don’t know what my plans for my life, my art career or the future are,” has been difficult.  However, that’s where I’m at now.  This is not to say I’m directionless, but the direction I’m going in has no end in sight and no visible path–there’s a fluidity to life now.  As I write this I’m trying to think of ways to describe it and the only thing that even comes close is to say, it’s like floating outside of my life, while experiencing a very real life.  It could even be said, it’s like an “out-of-body experience” or like living outside of my world.  I start my day with plans but if they get messed up–I don’t care!  That is NOT like me in my “safe” little world of planning everything out to the minute–but it is like me in my adventuresome life trusting in God for ALL things throughout every minute, every hour and every day of the week.  If you think about it, it’s kinda like being an astronaut floating freely in God’s atmosphere, living in awe of what comes next.  Be adventuresome–live out of your world–float.