This is not the prettiest doodle I’ve ever done–but life isn’t always pretty, right?! However, the questions are good and the bottom line is–WILL I BELIEVE? Will YOU believe?!
It is amazing to me how in sync with my life these messages have been. It’s as if God is prodding me forward every day with a word that parallels with current events. For example, today’s question comes right on the heels of an amazing, miraculous confirmation that God will provide–above and beyond our needs. A confirmation that some would just say, “Oh, that is just a coincidence, it was bound to happen.” While that COULD be said, the reality is, I/we, my husband and I, were/are all out of financial resources with looming needs hovering literally overhead–we have to have a new roof–this year! On top of that our deck is rotted out and has to be removed and the car is in need of repairs–sounds like I’m living a country western song, I know! But wait! There’s more! Our dog is fine but the cat needs to go to the vet, poor kitty, big booboo. In the midst of all the above I have felt called to move forward in a major way, with a major commitment financially (for me it’s major), in my art career. Anyone who is trying to do things in a logical manner would NEVER venture out and sign a contract to move their studio out of a space that costs nothing extra per month. But I did! Actually, I felt COMPELLED–compelled by many reasons but mainly, I felt compelled by God every day as I have read and doodled my devotions. It’s one of those unexplainable to anyone else experiences but very evident to both my husband and I.
Don’t get me wrong, I think I shared with you the panic attack I woke up with one night, and a few times it’s tried to visit again, but I keep throwing it back to God and He keeps saying, “Trust Me, keep moving forward, I’ll provide when it’s needed.” And He has, the means have been there just when I’ve needed them, every time! But yesterday, an opportunity arose out of the blue (not out of the blue for God but for me–He was planning it all along) and in a way I’d never have seen coming, that affirmed He’s in the decision and that He WILL provide. But, I had to be brought to end of myself and keep walking, keep trusting. Then today, I read this,
Do you have even the slightest reliance on anything or anyone other than God? Is there a remnant of reliance left on any natural quality within you, or on any particular set of circumstances? Are you relying on yourself in any manner whatsoever regarding this new proposal or plan which God has placed before you? . . . Is your relationship with God sufficient for you to expect Him to exhibit His wonderful life in you? . . .the more weak and feeble you are, the better. . . .If we really believed that God meant what He said, just imagine what we would be like! Do I really dare to let God be to me all that He says He will be?
Yes, I WILL to BELIEVE and yes, I want to be a holy experiment and yes, I have no idea what I’m doing or how I’m going to get what I don’t know what I’m doing accomplished, but I’m excited to see how God works this out. So here I go . . . let the adventures begin! I’ll keep you posted on how things turn out, but it looks like our roof may be paid for as well as an opportunity for solid, monthly income–more than enough to make ends meet–and ALL with my art. Praise God is all I can say 😉